Time of a change.

As much as I fucking love my tumblr layout/theme etc It is time for a change… Need to bring back the workout/running motivation and the student nurse side of chanel’s blog. of course, the lovely images and yoga inspiration will still continue, but more personalized =)

Stay tuned friends.

Word-vomit.

trying to stop yourself from saying something you’ve been screaming in your head every second for the past few months is literally the hardest thing to do.

But we will wait, because that’s what we’re good at.

I hope.

I’m just hoping that this little bit of progress continues…

I’m hoping I’m not wrong in thinking that it pays to stay optimistic and patient, to be open-minded and trusting, caring and understanding.

I’ve done the best I could in this situation. All thats left to do is wait and see if things turn out for the better because of it. No-one can say I haven’t tried or done my part in this relationship. It’s a two-way street and I hope it stays that way.

I miss my hobbies…

I miss teaching myself about random subjects like astronomy, herbology, and ASL for no reason other than I genuinely wanted to know everything about it. I miss painting, drawing, shading, and writing. I miss running, yoga, swimming, and long morning walks. I miss my daily photography work and my constant project brain storms. I miss learning new piano songs every day and getting lost in old books. I miss redecorating my room every month and painting my walls when I got bored. I miss having a place that feels like home. I miss thinking things were so perfect. I miss being oblivious.

Sometimes you’re 23 and standing in the kitchen of your house making breakfast and brewing coffee and listening to music that for some reason is really getting to your heart. You’re just standing there thinking about going to work and picking up your dry cleaning. And also more exciting things like books you’re reading and trips you plan on taking and relationships that are springing into existence. Or fading from your memory, which is far less exciting. And suddenly you just don’t feel at home in your skin or in your house and you just want home but “Mom’s” probably wouldn’t feel like home anymore either. There used to be the comfort of a number in your phone and ears that listened everyday and arms that were never for anyone else. But just to calm you down when you started feeling trapped in a five-minute period where nostalgia is too much and thoughts of this person you are feel foreign. When you realize that you’ll never be this young again but this is the first time you’ve ever been this old. When you can’t remember how you got from sixteen to here and all the same feel like sixteen is just as much of a stranger to you now. The song is over. The coffee’s done. You’re going to breathe in and out. You’re going to be fine in about five minutes.

The Winter of the Air   (via ceedling)

truth.

(via danielatumbls)

This is probably my favorite piece of writing. Really hits “home” for me.

Running Journal

February 18th, 2013: First Run. Stress-reliever, a “free run”. 20 mins. Bad mistake. Ankle pains 5 mins in, 15 mins in I turned around. Lots of mini breaks. Stretched a muscle in my thigh the wrong way as I had a lot of shooting pain there later in the day.

February 21st, 2013: First Run on Kara Goucher’s Program. 5 min speed walk / { 2 min run, 1 min walk } x 7. 5 min walk to cool down. No pain, slight tightness in right shin. Worried about shin splints with the paths im running, tend to get a little hilly. So took a few days off.

February 24th, 2013:   Day 2 of program. 5 min speed walk / { 2 min run, 1 min walk } x 7. 5 min walk to cool down. Shins still rather tight. Sore quads (but in a good way!)

February 28th, 2013: Day 3 of program. 5 min speed walk / { 2 min run, 1 min walk } x 7. 5 min walk to cool down. Shins tight, left ankle pain started up again on last round of running. I think it was due to me pushing my speed a bit. Ran more hills today as well. Learned my lesson!

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Been taking it very slow! Starting off, I’ve found that I still have as much endurance as I did before, which is so surprising to me. I feel like I could go forever, but I know the shin splints will return so I’m pacing myself with this program because running is the only thing that’s keeping my mind sane these days. First week of the Program complete! On to the next one on Saturday, suppose to be really nice and sunny out again which makes my runs that much better =)

-C

Changing Plans. Version 2.0
There is a post called “Changing Plans” I made back in October some time… I’m just kind of re-editing it for now, because I’ve finally started running again.
Last semester was amazing. I worked so hard at school, got the grades I needed to, met an amazing guy who successfully changes my life for the better every time I see him (even through the rocky parts), and really learned a lot about myself as an independent person.
But somewhere along the way I lost little bits of myself. I knew it was happening, but just kept telling myself I would catch myself up later.
And so it got later. and later. and later. Now I’m stuck in this limbo situation with a lot of things  askew in my life. I’m nowhere near where I want to be. As a person, or friend, or roommate, or partner. 
So here is my restart. I’m wiping the slate clean.
Time to start keeping my life in order; doing more for myself.
And that’s all I really need to say. Words only do so much - actions  speak louder.
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October’s Entry:

So, a while ago I made a running post about a plan that I found in an amazing running book.  It’s by Kara Goucher (olympic runner) and she calls it.. “The World’s Simplest Beginner Running Plan”. I’m reposting this for myself because I havent been running properly/at all this month and It’s killing me. For the next week I’m really going to work on my shin work-outs and preventative measures to not get shin splints, and then next week I hope to get back into this program in the mornings! I’m going to start on either week 2 or 3, depending on how I feel after the first run. 

My progress will be tracked with the tag “#ChanelRuns” from now on if your interested in seeing how it’s going. 

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The basics: 3 times a week, and one rest day in between each run (at least). I do a 5 min warm up and cool down by walking.

Week 1: Run 1 minute, walk 90 seconds. Repeat 8 times.

Week 2: Run 2 minutes, walk 1 minute. Repeat 7 times.

Week 3: Run 4 minutes, walk 1 minute. Repeat 6 times.

Week 4: Run 6 minutes, walk 2 minutes. Repeat 4 times.

Week 5: Run 9 minutes, walk 2 minutes. Repeat 3 times.

Week 6: Run 12 minutes, walk 1 minute. Repeat 3 times.

Week 7: Run 15 minutes, walk 1 minute, Run 15 minutes.

Week 8: Run 30 minutes continuously.

Wish me luck.

When you have so much work to do but you’re too busy being bored shitless in res all week to do any of it.

No? Just me? Okay.

I missed my own blog’s birthday?

Shame on me… 

2 years and counting as of February 7th! (for this blog at least)

I hope you all are enjoying the constant fluctuation in content coming from this little corner of the internet. Here’s to running a blog however I feel like it. Amen.